It's magical, and like magic, there may be some misdirection involved: everything is presented plainly to the human eye, but what are you focusing on? What is there but you do not see?

I love chaos. I'm in the heart of it all. Trent Reznor once said something, and I wish I could find the source, about lining up stiff machine beats with live drumming, how the the quantization and loose timing go well together. I've heard such production comments made often in techno music, relating to beefing up acoustic string sections with synth pads, or one thing I used to do was have a loud piano lead but make a softer one mirror it, multitracked and rerecorded so the timing wasn't totally cloned but there'd be a lot of overlap, and the 2nd part would be 1/8th the volume but in listening, somehow add this totally new dimension, this rich feel to it. I did before-and-after comparisons and one might not think it to be too obvious at first, but the more you pay attention, the more effectively you're drawn in.

Which brings me back to magic: if you know how the trick is done, then it's not just a matter of "no more mystery". In addition to that, you know what to look for.

I love chaos. I'm in the heart of it all. Why so many people have a hard time embracing contradictions is not something I relate to… at all. For me, it is a simple, straightforwardly intuitive process, and I wish there were better ways of explaining it, but it just feels so right. Since I cannot tell so well, I choose to show, and live life as an example for others. Not necessarily to follow, but just to continue being who I am and expanding on that as I absorb what I learn from my fellow Resis of Second Life and incorporate that into a fuller me.

For me, multiple states of internal reality exist at one time. Not something that can be channelled easily, but I realize it/it's all in here. Which is another reason why I want OoAEs so much in SL. I am confined by the laws of physics offline, but in SL (of the future), I need not be. I can be one, two, four, even eight Torleys at once, each with overlapping personalities like a Venn diagram, and keep track of them discretely in my mind. It's how my brain works. I argue and agree with myself all the time. This comes naturally. I tell myself lies which are in fact the truth. So if you ask, does Torlop think differently than Torley Prime? The answer is yes and no at the same time.

No, these are not split personalities. I have Asperger's Syndrome, not dissociative identity disorder. Different Torleys are aware of each other. They (mostly) come from different planets in the Fruit Bowl solar system, part of the Juicy Way. (All part of my imagination which I manifest through Second Life, making what's real to me real to others.) The watermelon ones come from Watermelon Prime, some of them from instanced frames of it: think of it as alternate endings to a movie on DVD extras. They can all be viewed. The curious thing is, as crazy as I am, this is all, completely banal to me. Ordinary, everyday, just being me, explaining myself because I know most people don't live life as I do. I hope more will be intrigued by this, because I certainly am, vice-versa.

And besides that?