Ah, the curious thing of what people say when one is not around.?Or, similarly put, when they think one is not around.?Curious indeed. I have some idea what happens, and of course, I am a curious kitty, but what displeases me is when I am so open and jovial on here yet rumors run rampant. (Reverse psychology at play? Maybe I should revert to "angry?'n' angsty"… or not.)

It makes me frown?that some I thought who were sincere are actually running a different act between inworld and elsewhere like #secondlife chat room (or channel, if you prefer). Doublefaced and dishonest — I'm disappointed. I am not a big fan of text-only chat… but ah, like my custom title on the SL forums right now says, "I AM WATCHING YOU ON IRC" I say this semi-jestingly, but really, I have had some transcripts and whatnot forwarded to me containing matters of both technical interest and "ye olde rumor mill", and many things in between on the spectrum. I consider it an opportunity to learn.

Some bizarre other gossip I've heard variously, which is ALL false, includes the following:

• I am a Linden alt or relative - no, not affiliated with them apart from being a happy cat. I'm Officer in several Groups to move towards disproving this, but it doesn't seem to be working as effectively as I'd hoped.
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• I secretly am a griefer?(GREEFER KIN)?under an alt(s) - NO! I roleplay but this doesn't extend to stirring up such an unpleasant ruckus. It's against the Community Standards, which I take damn seriously.
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• I'm really the alt-become-main of a certain?longtime established "player" of SL who disappeared - while this does carry a certain amount of honor with it, I can't say I was inworld in the days?before custom animations and when prim hoarding was common.

Notice how all the above?concerns alts? Isn't that peculiar? I could go into a deeper psychoanalytical argument about the fragmenting and/or compartmentalizing of one's self into several very tasty pieces of key lime/raspberry/pumpkin/maybe apple pie, but I won't.

This is the way the world works, but as many times as I've had it explained to me, I just don't "get it". It makes me?feel frustrated that I likely never will, due to my?neurobiology; ergo, I think it's just a matter of me being me. I enjoy simple pleasures like sunrises and beanbag chairs.?I am sad when someone makes the foolish choice of speculating wildly and possibly harmfully instead of having a good one-to-one conversation about what this catbot's (layers upon layers!!)?existence in this timeline is all about.?As in: "IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO KNOW,?PLEASE ASK!"

Now, I try not to make a big deal about it. The amusing upside is that I get a good laugh out of some of what's said and I am being to understand what is funny about some of this "drama".?Not to mention, there are a number of questions which my present self does not have the answer to but my future self will –?time travel o.O?– so travellin' on!

If you have questions about me, for me, please do ask, leave a comment, drop me an IM, etc. I'm here to answer them (who else could?)! ^_^?Ultimately, in line with my personal philosophy, this life — First and Second combined — has enough problems already. One of my resolutions for 2005 is to be a better person to others and to myself. I hope I can carry this through, but not without your help!