Sometimes inworld I get inundated with IMs. Pardon me, I need a clone. Maybe more than one of them — then I could assign them different color schemes from all around the rainbow. You may already know about the blue-and-orange Torley who likes tangerines in the Preview 1.6 gridverse. I know they're out there, I just have to find them. How??Perhaps an esteemed crafter of vehicular mechanicalisms such as ahk and his Delorean could do the trick. Actually, that's a fab idea: I could hop into that car once it's "fully-functional" and hope to warp through space and time and meet my Daddy again. Which would rock out. I'll try to give several days notice before my metaspacial jump, tho, as it wouldn't be nice for me to just disappear. So back to what I was saying, if you don't get a reply, I'm sorry: email me at torley@gmail.com with a full and detailed message and I'll do my best to answer. Thanxies!

Speaking of cars and squids and things that go, upon a tip from Antagonistic "Lady Luck" Protagonist, I visited Chaos again: this time, to great heights. The sim of Ferran and Surreal and other members of the Fetish Sinner Corps has its sky not full with Lucy's diamonds, but with spaceships bent on destruction of order. (Hence the name of the sim.) Beaming gracefully up — actually, stumbling through the skies and slamming into walls on my overaccelerated jetpack — I finally made it to the CSS Drudge, a masterwork of primgineering. AH! Sights shot through my mind's eyes, such as the luscious 256-graphics of VGA yesteryear as featured in many a Sierra Space Quest?game. This time tho, there were many more colors, and the environment is fully 3d-explorable. I took this shot at a particular vantage angle. A NEW FAVORITE BUILD OF MINE. Check out these dysfunctional starships by going to Chaos?(226, 46) and?550 meters up!

I had a fantasy of being rebirthed through a?womb of prims, coming out of the polygonal uterus to see this world o' wonders again. Thanks to Xylor "playing WoW" Baysklef for hop-and-poppin' back inworld to make this dream come true. With his XyObject (SINGULAR NOT PLURAL) machine, he rezzed this tunnel and I was reborn to my friends outside!

I am coming to realize this blog entry has a theme of growth and travel (well, a lot of mine might, but this one has a specific focus). To me, it's like having a baby, and loving your bundle of joy, but there's all the messes you have to clean up (you know which ones), and the tough thing of training your young to follow in your hopefully sage footsteps and grow up to be a productive and positive member of society at large.?There'll be struggles along the way — discipline! –?and the obviously-named "growing pains", but what's more, there'll be joy and celebration. And as long as you look to the future and keep on fighting for what you truely believe in, more rewards will be to come as you and your little one walk hand-in-hand.

That's really the way it's been for me on SL: cultivating this persona as "Torley Jr." as an extension of my offline self. She's different in some ways than her "Father", but as I become more like her, she becomes more like me — if that makes sense. In "real life" at the moment, I am pretty quiet and soft-spoken, but Jr. does a lot of screaming. She can be snarky and bratty and a real feisty personality to contend with… maybe my biological self will be more like that too. For sure, in some ways, Torley Jr. is what I would like to see if I had an actual daughter, a continuation of myself. An extension through space and time, yet unique with her own life to live. And Second Life provides a fantastic arena in which to explore these possibilities. HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO SAY THIS!?! LOL. It's true!!!

I find myself internally conflicted due to my dual identities — it's not necessarily a bad conflict, and it's certainly not a split personality, but it is like the uneasy tension before reaching climax (could be on a rollercoaster, could be in bed — apply this as you see fit). I reach peaks before settling into the valleys, and up! the ride continues to go. I find moi challenging myself in new and exciting ways and even ways that discomfort me initially but that I come to enjoy. I am, in fact, redefining myself as a total person: a technological transmogrification which grips deep into this social sphere, latches hold of preconceived constructs and shatters them before reassembling them into some twisted mask of bricolage which holds a gossamer beauty all its own . . . this?lil' kitty with biomech circuitry?who aspires to channel her thoughts out with an occasional run-on sentence.

And as such, Torley Jr. is materialistic — to a fault. She has a thing for the bling. Her tastes have grown more posh, her fancy for the luxuries of virtual life intensifying. Omnipresent are the contradictions within: she still holds humility dear like a monk begging for alms (and working at a gnome factory on occasion), her nomadic lifestyle despite having a warm home at the SL Public Library, her wearing of assorted ghetto scrappage in tandem with formal ballgowns, and one of my favorites, the fashion in which I comandeer my prose between the rated ratiocinative of?proper language and street slang like a mixmastah?scratchin'?on the wheels o' steel.

Wheels? HERE IS MY NEW CAR, COME SEE IT PLEASE. It's a Toyota Supra TT (!) MKIV as made by Shiryu Musashi, textured towards perfection by yours truely. The seats in this pic are old hat, BTW, as I've since zebrafied them with glammy shine. I don't really know what the importance of gears are, but this has switchable ones… I always go to 6 because I like to drive fast, up and around hills. Faster! Oh yessss.?I found out jiggling diagonally on some steep (like 80-degree) slopes can let ya climb them, altho it's infuriating that some smaller sudden jolts of landscape will ground ya and prevent you from passing. Hey Shiryu, what about a FLYING MODE or even a jumping button to hop such obstacles? Eh, it's unrealistic, but this is SL after all.?For that matter, sim crossing glitches are also unrealistic, and this?car has a sort of?protection against that which will dig your car higher in little increments should you be schtuck. It appears to have worked for me on numerous?occasions blazing through sandboxes, forests, and?soon,?SNOW.?So backtracking,?I still have my?custom Mambo Kalista for casual?comfort, but when I'm feeling like a speed demon, this is my pimped-out ride.?If you want one of your own, and you can customize yours too, head to: Bruin (26, 96) — try before you buy, test drives wh000t!

MY GOSH, TOMORROW IS MARCH THE NINE-TH. You know what that means, right? BIG PARTY INWORLD as detailed here (scroll down a ways to tha GDC part, y0!). Like it sez:

If you can?t make the real world festivities, there?s still room to join us in-world in avatar form. We?ve created a scale model of the party space in Second Life, named Virtual Varnish, and we will broadcast the virtual party on a screen in the real Varnish Fine Art gallery. (Check March 9th Events for more details.)

Alice has her own Wonderland in which she blogged about Cory's presentation. I found out about it both through the official Be The Change blog and BoingBoing. How metarrific is that? Brigadoon got a mention, and I'm supposed to be visiting?my?new Asperger's family?as soon as I get my access pass thingamatrix.?Thanks for sharing, Alice, and if you're not here in SL yet, PLEASE COME JOIN US IN THIS WONDERLAND*!

Well, that's all I have to say. For now.
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*Oz and Neverland have already been done in SL. When's Wonderland coming? I'll sooo be the mad hattress.