I often find there are lil' slips of info that'd make Resis tremendously happy. They only take a few minutes to publish. That's part of the charm of Internet connection for me, that it can get out so quickly, whether it's a blog entry, forum post, or email. And it can be very lightweight (read: cheap) to do.

I'd like to thank those who wished me a good day in IM today after my earlier entry. I just felt… inspired!

I have a bad feeling I'll be saying this for years to come, but one of the most inaccurate misconceptions about me is that I say that nothing goes wrong. How can that be when I have known so much suffering? Little-known fact: I used to write splatterpunk, and if you're familiar with that style, it's not peaches 'n' cream. More like, "Hey human, you're a ziplock bag of lasagna!" *wicked grin*

I dreadfully wish I didn't have to keep bringing it up, tho. It's redundant, I know it's prolly not what you came here to read. One reason why I'm so happy today is to make up for all my sadness, so if you can imagine how sad I was… but that is no way to live, and you basically have two choices: (1) die (e.g., suicide) or (2) live, and live life to the fullest. ( (3), going through the motions, isn't really living.)

Inward reflection: perhaps it's just confusing that I am so many things and I continue to embrace and want to become even more.

This makes me think of the joy of events unfolding over time: have you ever heard a full symphony flattened into a second? I have, with the technology of time compression plugins, and it was not a satisfying sound. Is there not joy in mystery? Yes there is. Is there not joy in surprises? Yes there is. Is there not joy in anticipating those mysteries and surprises? Yes there is, and that takes time!

So… still a lot of growing to do. Every day I hope to learn one or more things new, and I can share them.