It's one of the wisest pieces of advice my parents ever taught me:

"Invest in what you can commit to."

They didn't say it quite like that, but their actions made it clear.

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Compounded credit card debt is a horrible thing. Sometimes, we find ourselves in life situations beyond our control. But racking up large bills on entertainment you know you can't afford only makes "future you" sad. You can't commit to paying them off, so why invest your financial well-being?

Money management should be taught more to kids, because it's not just about profit: it's about being resourceful, a skill that can be applied to every area of life.

Lunch $$$

Another example I hate is someone saying "Let's do lunch" when they don't mean it. This is terribly confusing because while some argue, "It's just a social thing like asking about the weather when you don't care", they'll also acknowledge that words have meaning. So why waste that meaning? If you don't have honest intentions of going to lunch with me, don't bring it up. A more imaginative and commitment-free thing to say: "If we had lunch together, what would we eat?"

(And yes, on occasion when I've been asked "How are you?", I've replied, "Pretty awesome, but some things suck and I wish they could be better." That tends to to be a conversation-starter for the curious.)

Holy crap

Other things people say they usually don't mean:

  • "I wish you all the very best" (when said in a tense moment between two clashing opinions)
  • "I'm so sorry to hear that" (when one doesn't have an understanding of the situation)
  • Signing a letter with "Sincerely" (corporatespeak without emotional involvement)

Do you know one? Anything that makes your BS detector beep like mad? Some of these are pseudo-mantras people automatically repeat to comfort themselves due to a lack of substantial actions. In other words, they're excuses for not being creative. By creative, I don't mean you have to end every conversation with a strippergram. Candid honesty or Gibbs-style silence is usually enough.

Broken promises

Broken promises discourage others with less experience and perpetuate the cycle. Trust is already so fractured in our transient world. It's not about being "old-fashioned", it's about — like I said — investing in what you can commit to. This is true in romantic relationships where both partners feel pressured to be together without having real feelings of commitment. If you can't invest in a future together, don't claim otherwise. Someone is bound to be very hurt.

A trap most people fall into, but you don't have to

Many smaller examples are found on Internet forums and YouTube comments everywhere: someone doesn't read the whole thread and they jump in with a comment that makes their lack of attention glaringly obvious. This is a key instance of letting your lowmind take over. Maybe the thread title was emotionally charged and you lashed out without looking. If you want to commit to participating in a conversation, read it first, invest the time to show you're going to contribute by being informed. Otherwise, you've just spewed slop that can be chopped. Miscommunication and wordwars result — a waste of time for all involved.

Today, I saw a horrible news story where a man beat a little girl. Part of her intestines had to be removed. Some angry commenters crowed things like, "He's got tattoos! He can take the pain to have his intestines ripped out!" Well dude, I hear ya, but that's actually a photo of the girl's father, not the mother's abusive boyfriend.

So much unnecessary conflict can be avoided by asking the right questions first. What's that, you didn't get a helpful answer? The conversation probably doesn't matter and you can find a better one. Move on!

Making art?

Think your art sucks? Wait, that doesn't make any sense. It's like criticizing a seed for not being a tree.

So keep fertilizing. Art isn't for drones without spirit, it's for real people who are at times insecure and scared (I am!) but at the same time, acknowledge this by using their burdens as a conduit for sharing. You have to be passionate. Sometimes you need to cry. If those tears are a fuel for your passion, you had better cry more, damnit.

The above doesn't come at the expense of humor: I'm a severely wacky and silly guy who pairs intense productivity with absent-minded stargazing. But the most profound humor is tethered to delicious truths. Humor succeeds because we can laugh at serious moments, not because they're absent.

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The second "volume" of the Dream Journal continues to be lovingly handcrafted. At the moment, I'm intensely exploring various flavors of minimal techno. Which translates to, "No, it won't sound repetitive and bleepy, but is definitely an orthogonal homage to the energy found in those compact forms." I love having a loop build up — then shift into a surprising emotion which is hard to spell, such as melancholy and nostalgia. Like this.

I also love making good on my promises, which is why it startles me to share that for the now, there'll be no new Dream Journal text entries. YOU HAD NO RIGHT TO WRITE THIS, 2086. REDACTED. Why? Because I had a dream about it, and in some meta way, that takes precedence. Pardon if this disappoints IT IS NOT GOING TO. YOU ARE GOING TO CONTINUE. but I have a very good feeling ™ the words for the music shall transmute into something grander.

There're also a couple "side quests" I'm doing. Related to DJ but not part of that continuity. One of them involves lush ambient music to do the requisite "chillax" thang to. My wife suggested I make a whole album around that, so I followed through.

Some artists are excellent about promoting a single. Not me: while I'm not a Duggarite, I do believe in being quiverfull about art. This does however mean I like to know what your favorites are.

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These are some thoughts on why I make music.

Growing up, I had a hard time relating to most of what I didn't have a choice in. My ethnic roots include Chinese-Thai, but aside from Peking Opera costumes and a propensity to smile, I didn't fit in at family gatherings. I don't think my brother did either, so we'd sit off at a table to the side. If other younglings were inclined to visit us, we'd be sure they'd be involved in our mischief — not the other way around.

CYOC

But even with things I've chosen, I've felt like I've had to create my own culture. I continue to have a surprisingly hard time finding electronic musicians who splurge on both experimental technique (stereotype: IDM snobs) and infectious melodies (stereotype: trance kiddies), so I make the music I want to hear. Thing is, I don't want to be isolated: it's just tough, even with the Internet, to find like minds beneath surface similarities.

I've accepted what's gemful can be rare. I'm ever-so-thankful my Dream Journal and other works are helping me, through the music itself, connect with fans who share their stories.

I've read several news articles noting how North Korea's regime has surrealistically frozen it in the past. This includes their "pop" culture, music that hasn't been touched by the Western divide. This plays into my passion for alternate realities.

A detour

In the 80s, some of the Detroit techno pioneers were influenced by Alvin Toffler's Future Shock. I love that book to this day. My present craft is very much inspired by productivity culture, including Lifehacker, Merlin Mann (who loves my piano playing, yayzerama), and Seth Godin. It's not just about getting things done faster, it's about doing them effectively, having more fun, and amplifying the awesome for others.

As you do this, some reactions are utterly predictable. With a modest amount of experience, you can destroy them and move forward while others are stuck in mindjail. For example, when you say "I make art quickly!" someone is bound to reply, "You can't rush art."

That's a lazy and clichéd response because it doesn't ask your intentions. After all, you might not be rushing at all, merely removing workflow inefficiencies.

What if you say "I make lots of art!"? Someone is bound to reply, "I prefer quality over quantity".

Again, lazy, because it fails to take into consideration that you can make quality in quantity.

A critic has been brought up in a culture of being scared and worried, and as creative as they may (or hope to) be, their own mindjail imprisons them. They can't surpass their lowmind reflexes, and take the lame way of criticizing instead of improving their process.

When someone declares, "I can do it better and faster!" (functions of energy and time), I ask, "How? Can you teach me?" If they have nothing to show for it, that becomes self-evident. On the other hand, if they do have a treasure trove, it's to both our advantage.

An outside insider

I'm both deliberately and incidentally removed from various music "scenes" that casually interest me, but which again, I can't relate to. But some of the tracks I've been working on for DJ2, if I had to use a label, I'd call "Seattle techno". No, not necessarily the real Seattle, but the imaginary one which is a common site for cyberpunk, the gleaming chrome lines of a parallel present. Like a romanticized 1950s holds appeal for some, the 2010 (and soforth) that could've been excite me, and I want to keep finding others this moves.

As such: "techno" isn't just the music. It's the culture, such as what characters in this worldbuild would listen to, even when sipping coffee. It also involves the attitude, one of human and machine pulsing forward.

This thread unbinds and the obvious arises: easier said than done — until you start doing it.

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Iter8

2010-02-21

Hallo! Been doing gradual design changes to my blog to optimize it: I strive to simplify, but there can (can there?) be such a thing as TOO SIMPLE?

I removed comments from the music section to make the page shorter, but I archived 'em all 'cause I treasure the gemful feedback. Also added Facebook widget to the sidebar, let's see how that goes.

I know there's such a thing as never enough time so if you're wondering if the Dream Journal is worth it, yet are hesitant to listen to the tracks I've made available in full… GOOD NEWS! I've put up a SAMPLER which has 12 tracks which span a diverse spectrum and should wetten your appetite, and not in a Tragg's Trough way:

<a onclick="javascript:pageTracker._trackPageview('/outgoing/music.torley.com/track/dream-journal-sampler');" href="http://music.torley.com/track/dream-journal-sampler">DREAM JOURNAL SAMPLER by Torley</a>

Tracks featured are all in the full Dream Journal:

  • 050 – Glamhammer
  • 040 – Owly Eyes
  • 042 – The Long March
  • 029 – Bitlok
  • 026 – UC
  • 019 – What lies beyond
  • 030 – Voltriad
  • 012 – ANSI
  • 023 – Future Shock
  • 002 – Watermelon Patch
  • 018 – Synthly
  • 036 – Sole Noid

Punchy and to-the-point YEAHHH.

In addition, I created a page asking "Is Torley's music right for you?" This was as much about helping you decide in words (besides listening to the actual music, of course) as it was about understanding myself going forward. Hopefully it gives you a clearer picture of the human behind the music.

Thoughts + feelings, leave a comment or contact me.

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